The life of a single…

I’m having a conversation with my married cousin living in Hawaii about our cousin’s wedding. We’re both in the bridal party. I’m telling her about my idea I found online.

She interjects, “I know this is really random but are you open to meeting guys….?”

Me: Uh, yeah…?

Her: He’s Filipino but he’s tall. He’s really nice. But he has braces…

Me: Filipino is ok as long as he’s tall LOL.

Her: Yes…hesitation…. but he’s in the navy…

Me: Oh… ok. so how often did you guys hang out?

Her: Him and your Manong Rag hung out a few times when he was stationed in San Diego. He stopped by the house when he was deployed in Hawaii for a few months. He’s really nice.. you guys can meet next year when we move to San Diego…

Me: How tall is he?

Her: like 5’10” … right hun? (she’s talking to her husband) .. background noise. He has braces though.

Me: Oh braces are ok.. because he’ll have nice teeth..!!!

Her: Yeah yeah. haha. Go on your sister’s Facebook and see manong rag’s friends. His name is… [wait for it…]

Lloyd… [inside my head-he would have a name like Lloyd… ]

Me: Ok, but how are we supposed to meet?

Her: When we move to San Diego!

Me: When is this?

Her: Next year around April or May

Me: Oh ok…

Her: Get a Facebook then you guys can talk with each other!

Me: Ugh, no. I can wait til next year when you guys get here!

Her: Look at his pictures!

Me: Uh, no.. don’t tempt me to anonymously get a Facebook. . .

Her: Mel, I’m glad you’re open to all this…

Me: Yeah manang… I’m not a bitter single woman..

Her: Good, I’m glad. So I expect you to visit me often in San Diego…

 

Sorry, I JUST HAD TO!

So, I’m weird and quirky.

I have a certain way of doing things, a certain way I live my life, a certain way of dealing with people. That’s just me, MELANIE.

Where’s this going?

I had to. I’m sorry.

DELETE his number from my phone…

WHY?

Because. It was just weird for me. We still e-mail back and forth but, I felt like it.

Last night, I laid in bed flipping through my contacts which I do on occasion to send texts to friends I haven’t spoken to in a while and I came across his, on a whim, I deleted it.

I must say it took 2 tries. As I pushed the delete button I received a text message, FAIL. Try again.

Honestly, I don’t know what I’m doing. So, since I don’t know what I’m doing I don’t want to add anymore I don’t knows.

Yes, I’m interested but I’m not interested enough to go through the unknowns with him. I’m not interested enough to break down Melanie barriers and walls.

I’m not interested enough to go through the whole getting there stage… I don’t even know what that means.

It just isn’t enough to let him see me from my castle tower surrounded by the Great Wall of China with a moat as deep and wide as the Grand Canyon.

What I do know?

We’ll continue e-mailing and maybe through that I’ll know.


Besides…we’re acquaintances getting to the friends stage, I think.

Ugh, SEE! No one knows?! I’d rather just not think about it. So, there with the deleting his number and posting of this post.

It’s done!